LOVE ITSELF :)

In love, you need to be strong. You should know when to stay calm and in control. You should know when to listen and when to start talking. You know when to hang on or when time to give u, when to fight or when to just surrender, how to respect, how to give way, how and when to sacrifice. You need to be tough and be patient. You learn to hide your fears and tears. You learn how to burst out within yourself alone. You cry and then you’ll feel okay. You forgive and forget. You learn that giving up is a way of fighting. You do silly things and end up laughing at them when you reminisce. You get jealous but at the end of the day. You long for warm care and caress. It leaves you pain when it is over. You can’t escape from the process of grieving. You’ll get angry, bitter, as you deny. You regret and you seek for revenge just to get even. Then you just end up hurting yourself more. You’ll get depressed as if you will mourn a lifetime. You want to run for him yet you feel helpless. And healing time depends on how you react on it. And mending starts when you get used to it. Repeated experience shortens the mourning. Though love hasn’t been gone yet, you’ve learned the power of directing yourself. You still cry for it is still painful, yet you understand that it will only ease the hurt for the meantime. You refrain from expecting, for you’ve learned that it will do nothing but will aggravate. Then you appreciate the beauty of silence and acceptance. When love leave a painful wound and a deep scar, it will make you think you’ll not going to love again. You conclude love don’t have a happy ending. But love will choose to still be closed to you. And you start to realize that you are falling in love over and over again. Above all, love itself makes you happy. You smile for even simple things. Love is great when you don’t stop loving. What is strange but sweeter is that pain from love mends with love itself.