LETTING GO AND MOVING ON

Step, step, step, and more and more steps.. away and away, until he is out of my sight, until i couldnt feel his presence, until i cant sense his breath, until ive forgotten his smell, until he lost control of me, until he can no longer affect my system, until he is no longer like a heroin that runs in my veins, until i can stand strong in front of him, until i can say his name and feel nothing, until i can recall his memories without the tears, until i am free... then, i will be back, for i know ive been healed. then i could look him in the eyes and tell him i forgive him. then i could stare at him, smiling like an old friends. it would be toilsome to move away. it was such an effort to let go. but i know, if i wanna be healed, then i must. like a kid who is afraid of the needle, but knows an injection is needed to be cured, then i will take the courage to face whatever it takes to be free from the baggage of yesterday; then i will be free to love again.  "bakit labis mong dinaramdam pagkakamali mo't kabiguan? may magagawa ka ba kundi ang magpasyang bumangon at muling magsimula? panahon ay tumatakbo, pagbabago ay nasa kamay mo. may naghihintay sayo, hindi nanghuhusga, isang Amang nagmamahal sayo. habang buhay may pag-asa ka dahil kaylan ma'y di ka nag-iisa. di mo man napapansin, sya ay kasama mo, Isang Amang nagmamahal sayo. Kung ikaw ay inuunawa Nya, bakit di mo magawang limutin? ang iyong pinapasan Kanyang hinihingi upang malaya kang makapagmahal...!"