Monday, September 26, 2011
NEVER ENDING RELATIONSHIP
She is always in my thoughts,and i do really miss her a lot, she released all my pains when in that web i was caught, for the first time i thanked god and my life for bringing her, right into my heart that desparetely needed someone there. Like all good things,even she waskept far away from me,i called her a star,so that in the skies i could always see, the nights that used to be so lonely before she came, now started to brighten everytimei spelled her name. She used to always tell "you will always be my best friend" the truth is,it is because of her my heart started to mend, she kept aside all my broken pieces and showed me the way, the way to happiness,a way for the heaven to always stay. Everytime i made her to smile,she would call me "Silly boy", hearing those words,my heart would jump up and down in joy, Even in her silence,i could hear the words spoken in heart,bcoz she was so close,even distance could not keep us apart We too had our share of fights,anger and all that stuff,its only later we realized how these things made us tough,a bond so strong that finally we won our battle over tears,and a new hope awakened us every morning without any fears. In this journey of friendship,i hope our road never ends, we travel till death being each others,best of best friends, though life will still play hide and seek with our friendship, i promise you,in my life,"It Is A Never Ending Relationship".
10 Ways to Charm a Girl onthe First Date
1. Be well groomed Begin with the basics and see that you are well-groomed. Nothing will catch a girl’s eye as quickly as a well-dressed, neatly- turned out man. While this implies that the externals should be spiffy, it also means that you check yourself for clean breath, and fresh body odour, and ears and nostrils trimmed of hair. TIP: The surest way to charm a girl is to ask her questions about herself and to listen. A lot guys don't know what to ask and find it hard to listen. You can have an advantage over all your competition and charm a girl into looking forward to meeting you again and knowing you better. Make her think about you and miss you in your absence.
2. Dress according to the occasion A first date is generally a light affair, when two people are just getting to know each other. So if you are meeting in a café or an art gallery or simply going out for a movie, come dressed in smart casuals. Your date will feel that you are easy to be with, but not a shallow personality. While jeans and jackets are trendy, it is a good idea to avoid torn or grungy outfits, unless, of course, you specifically know that your date digs such styles. However, if you are meeting for a dinner date, you can arrive in semi-formals or even designer casuals. Keep the tuxedos and suits for more formal occasions like weddings and anniversary celebrations.
3. Chivalry is not dead Good manners go a long way in making a first good impression. Pick your date from her house, if possible and be sure to arrive on time. She will feel extra special and know that you are not like the other jerks, who keep their dates waiting. Remember to hold open the door for her, or pick up her things, even if you can see that she has dropped them knowingly! It is always gratifying to know that chivalry is not dead and what’s more, she is sure to be charmed by your gentlemanly ways.
4. Bring a gift Be sure not to arrive empty- handed. Pick up any small gift when you arrive for your date and your girl will be charmed by the gesture. A bunch of flowers or a box of chocolates are time- honoured first-date presents, even though you can be more adventurous and go for a silk scarf or a nice trinket. However, do not bring too expensive or ostentatious a present, as she may think you are either desperate or a show-off.
5. Think of unusual date ideas You can be innovative in picking first date ideas. Traditional first dates usually mean a dinner and a movie, but if you can surprise your girl with something new and fun to do, then she is sure to be impressed. Take her out on a picnic that you have packed or have a blast at the amusement park. Or if you know that she is the outdoor type, go rock climbing and share the amazing view from the top. Your date will not only appreciate that you have creative ideas, but also be charmed by the fact that you went an extra mile in planning something new.
6. Ask your date about herself Nothing bores a girl so much as man who keeps on droning about himself – his work, his achievements and his possessions. Instead, ask your date about her family, her friends, work, hobbies and interests. These questions will keep the conversation going and help to tide over awkward pauses, if any. If you feel sure of yourself, ask interesting things like where she sees herself in another ten years, or what she would choose if she could take only three things if she was stranded on an island. However, be careful not to appear too prying and be sure to take a hint if she seems unwilling to talk about her family or her job. Also steer clear of controversial topics, since a first date is not the right occasion to air your political or religious convictions.
7. Pay attention to your date Listen actively to what she has to say and maintain eye contact when she is speaking to you. Seldom is anything so irritating to a girl, as when her date lets his gaze stray to the long, stockinged legs at the next table. Also avoid fiddling with your phone or checking the time too often. When you pay attention to what she has to say, she will not only be charmed by your consideration, but also feel valued and respected, which is essential for any serious relationship.
8. Show consideration to others A girl with her wits about her, will keenly watch how you behave with others. While your pretty manners with her may flatter her into being momentarily charmed, if you are rude with the waiter or argumentative with the movie- hall usher, she might be intelligent enough to see these as indicative of a selfish personality. On the other hand, if you are polite to others around you, she will respect you as a mature person who has self- assurance enough to be considerate to others.
9. Be yourself Let your true personality guide you in what you say and do on your first date. Nothing is so pathetic as a guy who is faking it, for it reveals immaturity and a huge lack of self-confidence. Be your own true self and she will surely be attracted to the person you are.
10. Drop her home If all has gone well on your first date, be sure to drop her home. This will make her feel extra- special and she will be charmed by the tender romance of the gesture. Don't try to talk her into having sex with you on the first date, even if the chemistry is definite. It will make it seem like that's all you're looking for.
2. Dress according to the occasion A first date is generally a light affair, when two people are just getting to know each other. So if you are meeting in a café or an art gallery or simply going out for a movie, come dressed in smart casuals. Your date will feel that you are easy to be with, but not a shallow personality. While jeans and jackets are trendy, it is a good idea to avoid torn or grungy outfits, unless, of course, you specifically know that your date digs such styles. However, if you are meeting for a dinner date, you can arrive in semi-formals or even designer casuals. Keep the tuxedos and suits for more formal occasions like weddings and anniversary celebrations.
3. Chivalry is not dead Good manners go a long way in making a first good impression. Pick your date from her house, if possible and be sure to arrive on time. She will feel extra special and know that you are not like the other jerks, who keep their dates waiting. Remember to hold open the door for her, or pick up her things, even if you can see that she has dropped them knowingly! It is always gratifying to know that chivalry is not dead and what’s more, she is sure to be charmed by your gentlemanly ways.
4. Bring a gift Be sure not to arrive empty- handed. Pick up any small gift when you arrive for your date and your girl will be charmed by the gesture. A bunch of flowers or a box of chocolates are time- honoured first-date presents, even though you can be more adventurous and go for a silk scarf or a nice trinket. However, do not bring too expensive or ostentatious a present, as she may think you are either desperate or a show-off.
5. Think of unusual date ideas You can be innovative in picking first date ideas. Traditional first dates usually mean a dinner and a movie, but if you can surprise your girl with something new and fun to do, then she is sure to be impressed. Take her out on a picnic that you have packed or have a blast at the amusement park. Or if you know that she is the outdoor type, go rock climbing and share the amazing view from the top. Your date will not only appreciate that you have creative ideas, but also be charmed by the fact that you went an extra mile in planning something new.
6. Ask your date about herself Nothing bores a girl so much as man who keeps on droning about himself – his work, his achievements and his possessions. Instead, ask your date about her family, her friends, work, hobbies and interests. These questions will keep the conversation going and help to tide over awkward pauses, if any. If you feel sure of yourself, ask interesting things like where she sees herself in another ten years, or what she would choose if she could take only three things if she was stranded on an island. However, be careful not to appear too prying and be sure to take a hint if she seems unwilling to talk about her family or her job. Also steer clear of controversial topics, since a first date is not the right occasion to air your political or religious convictions.
7. Pay attention to your date Listen actively to what she has to say and maintain eye contact when she is speaking to you. Seldom is anything so irritating to a girl, as when her date lets his gaze stray to the long, stockinged legs at the next table. Also avoid fiddling with your phone or checking the time too often. When you pay attention to what she has to say, she will not only be charmed by your consideration, but also feel valued and respected, which is essential for any serious relationship.
8. Show consideration to others A girl with her wits about her, will keenly watch how you behave with others. While your pretty manners with her may flatter her into being momentarily charmed, if you are rude with the waiter or argumentative with the movie- hall usher, she might be intelligent enough to see these as indicative of a selfish personality. On the other hand, if you are polite to others around you, she will respect you as a mature person who has self- assurance enough to be considerate to others.
9. Be yourself Let your true personality guide you in what you say and do on your first date. Nothing is so pathetic as a guy who is faking it, for it reveals immaturity and a huge lack of self-confidence. Be your own true self and she will surely be attracted to the person you are.
10. Drop her home If all has gone well on your first date, be sure to drop her home. This will make her feel extra- special and she will be charmed by the tender romance of the gesture. Don't try to talk her into having sex with you on the first date, even if the chemistry is definite. It will make it seem like that's all you're looking for.
5 Signs that you're Not Inlove
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Here are the 5 signs that youre not being inlove. These signs may apply to people who used to be in love, or they may apply to people who aren't sure if they've ever been in love. Obviously, everyone is different, and some of these may or may not apply to you. My main purpose in writing this is to help people who have fallen out of love, or those who can't get over a crush, realize it before they waste a lifetime on someone they dont belong with.
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1.You're not sure .
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Generally speaking, if you've got to ask the question of whether or not you're in love, you're probably not. That's not to say you never were, but it stands to reason that you're probably not, at this time, in love with whomever you're thinking about.
Moreover, I'm not suggesting that you can't fall back in love with someone, but if you're at this point, you've probably already fallen out of love.
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2.You're wince at the idea of kissing or getting naughty .
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This is the test I always use when I'm wondering how much I dig someone. Close your eyes and picture yourself sucking face with the person in question. If you can't picture it without grimacing, wincing or, God forbid, gagging, you're not in love with that person. You may well love them, but it's not an Adam and Eve type of thang.
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3.You're rather be with your mates .
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If you'd rather spend more time with your friends than your girlfriend or boyfriend, something is amiss. Certainly, one should have their own time away from a partner, but if the partner is getting 40% and the mates are getting 60% , something's not right there.
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4.Everything they do annoys you .
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We've all been here, haven't we? Winding down toward the end of a relationship, the other person inevitably annoys you to the point you'd rather sleep outside in the snow than sleep in the same flat, due to all of their annoying habits. Habits which, by the way, didn't bother you in the slightest when you first got together.
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5.You've realized your dating a moron .
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Even if you're dating a neurophysicist, that man is now labeled a complete moron for the simple fact that he forgot to take the trash out for the second week in a row. Not only that, he watches stupid programming on television and his taste in music is childish and mundane. Nevermind the fact that you found ic is childish and mundane. Nevermind the fact that you found his taste absolutely charming when u first started dating.
WHAT IS LOVE ??
I actually disagree with this..
What is love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? - It isn’t love, it’s like.You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right? -it isn’t love, it’s lust. Are you proud, and eager to show them off? - it isn’t love, it’s pride. Do you want them because you know they’re there? -it isn’t love, it’s loneliness. Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? -it isn’t love, it’s loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? -it isn’t love, it’s low confidence. Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them? -it isn’t love, it’s pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? -it isn’t love, it’s infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? -it isn’t love, it’s friendship. Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of? -it isn’t love, it’s a lie. Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? -it isn’t love, it’s charity. Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad?? -then it’s love. Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong?? -then it’s love. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?? -then it`s l o v e. Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? -then it’s love. Do you accept their faults because they`re a part of who they are? -then it’s love. Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret? -then it’s love. Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? I think that all of the above, all the emotions like lust, pride, loyalty etc. are a part of love. Love doesn’t have a definition, it’s different for everyone. It’s not just one emotion, it’s a mix of emotions. I could give the last lines an other definition than love too. I would say that it would be attraction, affection, because you like their true self, their inside and outside, the last statements aren’t so different than the above ones. I think the last two lines are a form of loyalty too. How can anybody tell someone that they’re not in love? I think a person knows when he/she is in love. When you have to ask yourself “am I in love?” no, you’re not. ‘Cause when you are, you just know. And there is NO ONE who can tell you you’re not. Everyone has it’s own definition of love. I believe that love somehow has every emotion and feeling there is.
What is love?
Are your palms sweaty, is your heart racing and is your voice caught within your chest? - It isn’t love, it’s like.You can’t keep your eyes or hands off of them, am I right? -it isn’t love, it’s lust. Are you proud, and eager to show them off? - it isn’t love, it’s pride. Do you want them because you know they’re there? -it isn’t love, it’s loneliness. Are you there because it’s what everyone wants? -it isn’t love, it’s loyalty. Are you there because they kissed you, or held your hand? -it isn’t love, it’s low confidence. Do you stay for their confessions of love, because you don’t want to hurt them? -it isn’t love, it’s pity. Do you belong to them because their sight makes your heart skip a beat? -it isn’t love, it’s infatuation. Do you pardon their faults because you care about them? -it isn’t love, it’s friendship. Do you tell them every day that they are the only one you think of? -it isn’t love, it’s a lie. Are you willing to give all of your favorite things for their sake? -it isn’t love, it’s charity. Does your heart ache and break when they’re sad?? -then it’s love. Do you cry for their pain, even when they’re strong?? -then it’s love. Do their eyes see your true heart, and touch your soul so deeply it hurts?? -then it`s l o v e. Do you stay because a blinding, incomprehensible mix of pain and relation pulls you close and holds you there? -then it’s love. Do you accept their faults because they`re a part of who they are? -then it’s love. Are you attracted to others, but stay with them faithfully without regret? -then it’s love. Would you give them your heart, your life, your death? I think that all of the above, all the emotions like lust, pride, loyalty etc. are a part of love. Love doesn’t have a definition, it’s different for everyone. It’s not just one emotion, it’s a mix of emotions. I could give the last lines an other definition than love too. I would say that it would be attraction, affection, because you like their true self, their inside and outside, the last statements aren’t so different than the above ones. I think the last two lines are a form of loyalty too. How can anybody tell someone that they’re not in love? I think a person knows when he/she is in love. When you have to ask yourself “am I in love?” no, you’re not. ‘Cause when you are, you just know. And there is NO ONE who can tell you you’re not. Everyone has it’s own definition of love. I believe that love somehow has every emotion and feeling there is.
Sunday, September 25, 2011
THE LOVER BEFORE ME
I know you as far as what he's been telling me about you. I'm not sure if you know me but that doesn't matter--the one thing that we have in common is that we love the same man.
He talked about you almost all the time--so much that I had the notion that he wasn't over you yet. We weren't officially "dating" at the time but we've spent hours, if not days "flirting" (for the lack of a better term) with each other. It was cool with me. Besides, you were a big part of his past that I have to accept whether I like it or not. During those times, he shared the joys and the heartaches of your now-former relationship. That's the only way in which I knew you--no more, no less.
I don't really care about what happened between the two of you, but I cared to listen to his musings anyway. Through those stories I came to know him more. I came to know and realize how much of a wonderful man he is. I don't really know the circumstances that surrounded your relationship at that time, but that makes one wonder why it ended up that way.
He was distraught over the realization that it was over. It took him weeks, if not months to get over it and once he did, he came out wounded but stronger. When I met him, the wounds had healed but the scars were there, and I know it will never go away. The only thing I can do is to accept him for who he is and all the things he has been through.
I had a hard time convincing him that it's not the end of the world. I understand it's a horrible feeling to realize that you've been cheated on by the one person whom you love and trust with your whole being. But it's even harder to convince someone who's been lied to that not all people are like that. It took a lot of time and patience but it paid off in the end. Now, I have his love and could not ask for anything else.
I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for teaching me how to love him. You may have not taught me that directly but by learning about the tragedy that was your relationship, I learned from the lessons it taught both you and him. Thank you for doing what you did--morbid as it may sound it gave me the chance to experience how it feels to be loved by a guy as great as he is. I could never thank you enough for breaking his heart.
He talked about you almost all the time--so much that I had the notion that he wasn't over you yet. We weren't officially "dating" at the time but we've spent hours, if not days "flirting" (for the lack of a better term) with each other. It was cool with me. Besides, you were a big part of his past that I have to accept whether I like it or not. During those times, he shared the joys and the heartaches of your now-former relationship. That's the only way in which I knew you--no more, no less.
I don't really care about what happened between the two of you, but I cared to listen to his musings anyway. Through those stories I came to know him more. I came to know and realize how much of a wonderful man he is. I don't really know the circumstances that surrounded your relationship at that time, but that makes one wonder why it ended up that way.
He was distraught over the realization that it was over. It took him weeks, if not months to get over it and once he did, he came out wounded but stronger. When I met him, the wounds had healed but the scars were there, and I know it will never go away. The only thing I can do is to accept him for who he is and all the things he has been through.
I had a hard time convincing him that it's not the end of the world. I understand it's a horrible feeling to realize that you've been cheated on by the one person whom you love and trust with your whole being. But it's even harder to convince someone who's been lied to that not all people are like that. It took a lot of time and patience but it paid off in the end. Now, I have his love and could not ask for anything else.
I have a lot of things to thank you for. Thank you for teaching me how to love him. You may have not taught me that directly but by learning about the tragedy that was your relationship, I learned from the lessons it taught both you and him. Thank you for doing what you did--morbid as it may sound it gave me the chance to experience how it feels to be loved by a guy as great as he is. I could never thank you enough for breaking his heart.
Saturday, September 24, 2011
BLAMED IT TO THE WINGED CREATURES
I'm not perfect! And I know no matter how hard I'll try I'll never be. It's my imperfectness that made me the perfect me. I thought you would accept that. I thought you knew that. I thought I was good enough for you. But I wasn't! And no matter how I work to death to earn your acceptance, I never will.
I know I'm not a daughter every parent would wish to have. Though I strive to be one, I know my efforts are useless.But hey, know I did become better (please don't deny this fact). But you never noticed. You never cared! You were too busy eyeing on my mistakes that you never had a chance to see that the rest of me has something good to offer. Pity, you never had a chance to get to know who your "real" daughter is. You never had the chance to get to know the "real" me.
To you, I was nothing but a brat, who hasn't and never will be able to do something good in her life. And thinking that I don't have a mind of my own, you morphed me into a robot following your directions in this so -called life.
A puppet. That was what I was and probably that's what I still am right now! But if before its only you who were heard, this time I'm gonna make sure I know what I want. This is my life. I want to be in control. I don't wanna be a mere passenger while you drive. This is my life, not yours,
As a young child I had longed for the caress of a parent. But where were you? You were either too busy with your work or with your friends or with your numerous organizations or worse, you're here but you're damn tired to make me notice your presence. I never had the chance to demand your attention... your love. who Am I anyway? I am just a child. A by-product of the intense emotions you felt for each other 15 years ago. The intense emotions which is now starting to fade (or has it already faded?)
All my life, I've spent endless hours asking why you had to fight! You argue about everything! You grab every opportunity to pick a fight! Even in the eyes of your children! of the children you've been given full responsibility of, of the children whom you should love and care for.
But you defined love as being able to give worldy things, being able to provide things that we need and things that we want. I never wanted an atm machine as a parent! I need a mother. A mother who'll allay me with my fears. A mom who'll calm me and help me ease the pain after every fall. I need a father! a dad from whom I can get the courage I need to face the troubles in this life. I need you... more than anything else in this world.
So maybe you love me and you just don't know how to express it, then please don't blame me for not being expressive either! Maybe you have a lot of problems too. But you have all the time in the world, can't you leave even just a moment for us?!?! Can't you have time for a simple how-are-you talks? I don't intend to bombard you with problems. I just want to feel your concern. Is that a lot to ask?
You work to give us what you need and what you want but money can never provide the greatest thing that a child needs.
You had been constantly fighting. You never ceased arguing. You're always eyeing for each other's shortcomings. Remember the solemn vow you made in the altar? you looked so happy in your wedding pictures. Then again, pictures can be very tricky. They can be mere illusions. Now, I'm starting to think that maybe you weren't really happy on your wedding day or that maybe you just got carried away with your naive emotions and impulsive actions. (sigh!) I hope I'm wrong. I really hope I am.
When Pandora opened the box Mercury left them, even after all the warnings of Epimetheus, she let the monsters escape. And probably one of this dark-winged creatures is the cause of all the troubles in my family. Yet in that same box, a beautiful winged creature emerged. And as the dark-winged creatures carried the promise of troubles and chaos, the last creature that came up, that beautiful winged-creature carried the promise of a brighter day! And though the world continues to doubt his existence, I never did! After all, he's the only one I can count on... his name? Everybody knows his name... he's called HOPE.
I know I'm not a daughter every parent would wish to have. Though I strive to be one, I know my efforts are useless.But hey, know I did become better (please don't deny this fact). But you never noticed. You never cared! You were too busy eyeing on my mistakes that you never had a chance to see that the rest of me has something good to offer. Pity, you never had a chance to get to know who your "real" daughter is. You never had the chance to get to know the "real" me.
To you, I was nothing but a brat, who hasn't and never will be able to do something good in her life. And thinking that I don't have a mind of my own, you morphed me into a robot following your directions in this so -called life.
A puppet. That was what I was and probably that's what I still am right now! But if before its only you who were heard, this time I'm gonna make sure I know what I want. This is my life. I want to be in control. I don't wanna be a mere passenger while you drive. This is my life, not yours,
As a young child I had longed for the caress of a parent. But where were you? You were either too busy with your work or with your friends or with your numerous organizations or worse, you're here but you're damn tired to make me notice your presence. I never had the chance to demand your attention... your love. who Am I anyway? I am just a child. A by-product of the intense emotions you felt for each other 15 years ago. The intense emotions which is now starting to fade (or has it already faded?)
All my life, I've spent endless hours asking why you had to fight! You argue about everything! You grab every opportunity to pick a fight! Even in the eyes of your children! of the children you've been given full responsibility of, of the children whom you should love and care for.
But you defined love as being able to give worldy things, being able to provide things that we need and things that we want. I never wanted an atm machine as a parent! I need a mother. A mother who'll allay me with my fears. A mom who'll calm me and help me ease the pain after every fall. I need a father! a dad from whom I can get the courage I need to face the troubles in this life. I need you... more than anything else in this world.
So maybe you love me and you just don't know how to express it, then please don't blame me for not being expressive either! Maybe you have a lot of problems too. But you have all the time in the world, can't you leave even just a moment for us?!?! Can't you have time for a simple how-are-you talks? I don't intend to bombard you with problems. I just want to feel your concern. Is that a lot to ask?
You work to give us what you need and what you want but money can never provide the greatest thing that a child needs.
You had been constantly fighting. You never ceased arguing. You're always eyeing for each other's shortcomings. Remember the solemn vow you made in the altar? you looked so happy in your wedding pictures. Then again, pictures can be very tricky. They can be mere illusions. Now, I'm starting to think that maybe you weren't really happy on your wedding day or that maybe you just got carried away with your naive emotions and impulsive actions. (sigh!) I hope I'm wrong. I really hope I am.
When Pandora opened the box Mercury left them, even after all the warnings of Epimetheus, she let the monsters escape. And probably one of this dark-winged creatures is the cause of all the troubles in my family. Yet in that same box, a beautiful winged creature emerged. And as the dark-winged creatures carried the promise of troubles and chaos, the last creature that came up, that beautiful winged-creature carried the promise of a brighter day! And though the world continues to doubt his existence, I never did! After all, he's the only one I can count on... his name? Everybody knows his name... he's called HOPE.
OLD FLAME
I don’t know what to make of you. The past weekend was just too overwhelming for me. With one moment of mutual boredom and a series of text messages, you were back in my life.
Or maybe you just brought me back to the past. To the white walls and red-tiled floors of our high school. To our afternoon strolls and orange sunsets. To numerous poems, first dances, and young love.
I always felt that high school, being one of the best parts of my life, went by too fast. In that fleeting world, we met each other. The usual bad boy started to like the usual good girl. Eventually, the glances lingered. Eventually, the smiles lingered as well. Eventually, she started to like him too.
She was his inspiration. He was her welcome distraction. They exchanged stories, ideas and poems. They were friends and wished each other good luck before exams. They talked to each other more during Chem periods than in between classes. They shared notes, laughs and jokes. He started to ace his subjects with the inspiration. She started to fail because of the distraction.
She really liked him a lot that she became jealous of his admiration of a pretty Bio teacher. He really liked her a lot that he knew who had already asked her to the prom. And though they didn’t come together, prom night was still special. They danced under the glow of fake silver moons and blue stars. He stepped on her foot twice and blushed. She chuckled at his blunders. He held her hand. She thought they fit perfectly. It was more than romantic. It was magical.
Now, it's nostalgic. I can't believe I still remember all this. They were stashed away for years at the back of my mind.
Now, getting to know you once again, I can say that you've changed yet still stayed the same. You're a mere projection of the fifteen-year-old you. You've grown from a bad boy to a frat man. You've matured and took one step towards your dreams. You still value your friends. Maybe you still write poems. Maybe you still have the same stride and the same look. Maybe you still excel in the things you give your heart to Maybe
The truth is, I don't know you anymore. I just pretend I do. We've both obviously grown since high school, and all I know of you is a fifteen-year-old boy. And you know me as a fifteen-year-old girl. Some things stay the same, but most things change. We're not fifteen anymore. There's no romance. No magic. Just reality.
Some believe in rekindling old flames. Some say that once there's a spark, the flame will never die out. I believe that old flames can be blown out just as easily as they can be rekindled. I know, because that's what I did.
Or maybe you just brought me back to the past. To the white walls and red-tiled floors of our high school. To our afternoon strolls and orange sunsets. To numerous poems, first dances, and young love.
I always felt that high school, being one of the best parts of my life, went by too fast. In that fleeting world, we met each other. The usual bad boy started to like the usual good girl. Eventually, the glances lingered. Eventually, the smiles lingered as well. Eventually, she started to like him too.
She was his inspiration. He was her welcome distraction. They exchanged stories, ideas and poems. They were friends and wished each other good luck before exams. They talked to each other more during Chem periods than in between classes. They shared notes, laughs and jokes. He started to ace his subjects with the inspiration. She started to fail because of the distraction.
She really liked him a lot that she became jealous of his admiration of a pretty Bio teacher. He really liked her a lot that he knew who had already asked her to the prom. And though they didn’t come together, prom night was still special. They danced under the glow of fake silver moons and blue stars. He stepped on her foot twice and blushed. She chuckled at his blunders. He held her hand. She thought they fit perfectly. It was more than romantic. It was magical.
Now, it's nostalgic. I can't believe I still remember all this. They were stashed away for years at the back of my mind.
Now, getting to know you once again, I can say that you've changed yet still stayed the same. You're a mere projection of the fifteen-year-old you. You've grown from a bad boy to a frat man. You've matured and took one step towards your dreams. You still value your friends. Maybe you still write poems. Maybe you still have the same stride and the same look. Maybe you still excel in the things you give your heart to Maybe
The truth is, I don't know you anymore. I just pretend I do. We've both obviously grown since high school, and all I know of you is a fifteen-year-old boy. And you know me as a fifteen-year-old girl. Some things stay the same, but most things change. We're not fifteen anymore. There's no romance. No magic. Just reality.
Some believe in rekindling old flames. Some say that once there's a spark, the flame will never die out. I believe that old flames can be blown out just as easily as they can be rekindled. I know, because that's what I did.
Friday, September 23, 2011
WHY DO I CRY?
S0metimes we argue,I d0n't kn0w why.
Then I sit and w0nder,why d0 I cry?
I cry because I love you,
I cry because I care,
I cry because I feel we have a l0ve so rare,
S0metime I'm afraid I'll turo ar0und an y0u w0n't be there.
I l0ve y0u every minute, I l0ve y0u every day,
I even l0ve y0u when we argue, I l0ve y0u when we play.
S0metimes I've w0ndered d0 y0u l0ve me t0o,
then I lo0k in y0ur eyes and I kn0w it's true.
So when I say s0meth!ng a little crazy or I do s0meth!ng y0u d0n't fee is right,
Please,let's try to w0rk it out so we w0n't fight.
S0me pe0ple take relati0nsh!ps for granted,it's sad to hear but true.
I d0n't want th!s to happen, n0t with y0u.
I want our relati0nship to be c0mpletely fr0m the heart So we b0th kn0w,
n0 matter what we g0 thr0ugh, we will never apart.
Monday, September 19, 2011
Wretched Little Heart of Mine
Oh little wretched heart of mine, why won’t you understand?
For once listen to me, and do as I demand.
As much as it will hurt us, it’s time to tell our love goodbye,
Your overwhelming sadness makes the tears spill from my eyes.
It’s true that we still love her, no doubt we always will
But sometimes our greatest fantasies aren’t meant to be fulfilled.
In the time that we were with her, she brought us so much joy,
Her caring kindness helped rebuilt, what others had destroyed.
We only meant to love her, simply that and nothing more,
But the problems we’ve created can no longer be ignored.
Though the pain that we are feeling cuts through us like a knife,
It’s time for us, my little heart, to step out of her life.
Little heart when you are aching, and you find it’s her you miss,
Just remember all her attention and goodness, and fondly reminisce.
For once listen to me, and do as I demand.
As much as it will hurt us, it’s time to tell our love goodbye,
Your overwhelming sadness makes the tears spill from my eyes.
It’s true that we still love her, no doubt we always will
But sometimes our greatest fantasies aren’t meant to be fulfilled.
In the time that we were with her, she brought us so much joy,
Her caring kindness helped rebuilt, what others had destroyed.
We only meant to love her, simply that and nothing more,
But the problems we’ve created can no longer be ignored.
Though the pain that we are feeling cuts through us like a knife,
It’s time for us, my little heart, to step out of her life.
Little heart when you are aching, and you find it’s her you miss,
Just remember all her attention and goodness, and fondly reminisce.
Sunday, September 18, 2011
SEND MY LOVE TO HEAVEN
What can I say about a girl I loved since I was ten... that I love the way she laughs at me when I commit mistakes, the way she fusses over silly things and even the way she cries over some sad silly late night show...
She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.
She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"
So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.
The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.
As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.
Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.
We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.
Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."
Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.
So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.
It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.
Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.
We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.
Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.
The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.
So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.
It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."
I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."
I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.
I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........
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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.
Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.
What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.
Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.
P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."
She was my best friend and I have known her since we were small. She knew all my secrets, which reveals my feelings for her, that I love her not only because she's pretty and smart but also the way she laughs at everything and the way she sees life and love. I could still remember the first time we met; I was five years old then. It was one windy afternoon having no one to play with except for my best friend, Troy. He and his family just moved out to a neighboring state at transfer because his father got promoted. And so I climbed up our tree house, I saw a moving truck coming down the street. I watched it approaching and noticed a family station wagon following it. It stopped in front of the house and out came a family. I was about to glance away when came out the loveliest girl I've ever seen.
She was four years old that time but then even at an early age she was a beauty. She had long curly hair, which reached almost to her waist. She had fair complexion and eyes which could make a man lose his heart into them. I continued to watch her when suddenly she looked up and saw me watching them in the tree house window. I was about to duck when she smiled and waved her hand. I waved back and then watched in amazement as I saw her running towards the tree house. So I went to the edge of the ladder and said, "Would you like to come up?" she answered, "May I?" So I help her climb up and when she reached the top she then turned to me and said, "By the way, my name's Sam, what's yours?" I answered, "My name is Christopher but then you can call me Chris." She smiled and said, "Well I like your name. Hey your tree house's neat!" then I replied, "Thanks! Troy and I made this. This used to be our hide out. We used to goof around, play ball and go biking together. He was my best friend and I kind of miss him you know." She smiled and said "I'm here now, we could do things you do with Troy and I could be your new best friend too. I never had a boy for a friend before so it could be exciting to have one. I could learn how to play ball and I have my bicycle so we could go biking together. Now how does that sound to you?" I smiled and said, "Well that sounds good enough." Then she held her hand and said, "It's a deal then!"
So that's how it started. So we became best friends and it was kind of strange at first for she was a girl and there are things which I was little bit hesitant to indulge her like catching frogs, swimming in the lake and climbing trees, but then she tried and did everything just to please me. There was even a time when she fell off the bike trying to catch up with me in a race we had and I was the one who bandaged her scraped knee. I could still remember the time when she hit the window of our neighbor when we were playing baseball and it was I who talked to Mr. Chambers and promised to pay for the damage, which meant having to loose a week's allowance. I remembered the time when I fell off the tree when I tried to rescue a little kitten because Sam was near to tears when she saw the helpless kitten trapped in a branch. I even fought with the tough guy when they teased Sam and made her cry and I ended up having a black eye and a bruised cheek. I remember Sam crying as she placed an ice bag over the damaged eye and later gave it a get-well kiss. I did everything to please her and gave everything her little heart desires.
The lake was our favorite hang out. We had our Saturday swim routine. We would pack food and later eat them under the big oak tree. There was a special branch in which the two of us could sit together and tell each other's dreams. She dreams of being a Ballerina and she knows my dream of becoming a doctor. She never laughs at my dreams and pursuits even if they were quite impossible. It made me like her even more.
As years went by, I noticed that my feelings towards her were slowly changing. Somehow, I thought it was just a simple crush case. But when I started thinking about her at night, dreaming of her and having the feeling of wanting to be with her all the time, I thought it was something different, something that made me feel strange, but then it was exhilarating feeling. It made me feel so alive. Whenever our hands touch, I could feel the tingling sensation in my spine. Once when we were at the lake having our Saturday swim routine and as I carried her towards the water edge, I had the feeling of not wanting to let go. I just wanted that moment to continue hoping it would never end. I then realized I was slowly falling in love with my best friend.
Many times I tried to deny the feeling for I was scared to imagine what would happen if ever I'd try to tell her how I feel about her. I was scared because she might think that I'm taking advantage of her and our friendship. I was afraid of losing her so I just kept my feeling hidden.
We reached the age of fifteen and I noticed that Sam grew lovelier each day. How my heart aches wherever I see boys glance her way. I want to punch their noses as I watch them talking to her giving compliments, flowers and chocolates. There were times when I watch her at a distance with mixed feelings of anger and hurt! Because it hurts so much to know that there were so many things I wanted to tell her but then I could not do so. There were so many presents which I long to give her but then I could not for she might see me only as a friend. I was also scared of letting her know how I feel about her as much as losing her.
Then one day, I just learned from a friend that she already had a boyfriend. At first, I tried to convince myself that it was just a rumor. Her boyfriend was Mark, a popular senior, who was the heartthrob of the campus. She, being the cheerleader was close to the basketball team to which Mark was the captain. When I saw them walking together at the parking lot that afternoon, I watched her with my heart slowly breaking into pieces. I saw her wave at me but I just pretended not to see her for I was scared that she might see in my eyes the pain I'm feeling inside because of seeing her with another guy. Those days that followed where the saddest days of my life. How my heart aches when I see her walk by me with him at her side. Every time we meet in hallways and I see him around her, there's a feeling inside me that makes me want to grab her away from him. How it hurts to see the girl I long possess was now owned by somebody else. That special smile I long for her to cast on me was now casted on him. As she passes by me she doesn't know that I whisper the words "God how I love you."
Then one faithful day they broke up. She came too me that evening crying on my shoulder. They had a big fight and it ended up with their break up. Mixed feelings were scaring me inside. I was happy because she was free and maybe I would have the chance of telling her my true feelings for her but then I was feeling so bad because she is crying her heart out just for him. At that time, I was not quite sure of what I wanted to do.
So we found ourselves doing what we did in old days with our Saturday swim routine, spending time in our tree house. We still enjoyed doing childish pranks for we still are both young at heart. So many chances I had for me to confess my feelings for her but still I couldn't bring myself to her for I was scared of losing her once more. I once lost her, now I could not bear of losing her again by telling her, "I love her". So I just kept my feelings even if it was bursting to be expressed from my aching heart.
It was a week from our JS Prom, we were seated at the branch of an oak tree drying ourselves after our afternoon swim when she said, "I was wondering Chris if you would like to be my partner?" It just got out of my wits for it was like a dream I never thought would happen. It took me awhile to answer her, "I thought there are so many boys who would die for you to be their partner?" So she turned away and quietly said, "Well I just thought I would like to spend that night with my best friend." Then she continued in a whisper I could barely hear, "Don't you want to die just like them to be my partner Chris?" I was too stunned to speak for it came close for me to blurt my feelings for her. We… we're silent for a while until I finally whispered, "I would be happy to be your partner Sam. "The she smiled and suddenly kissed my cheek. I could hardly contain the joy I felt that time. I saw her turned red and bowed her head. Suddenly she stood up and run towards the water saying, "Last one to reach the water treats to sundae fudge!”I ran slowed up so that I would lose which meant having to have her with me for another three hours or more.
Our Prom night came. I bought a new tuxedo and poured almost the entire bottle of perfume. I went to fetch Sam. Sam's mother greeted me and I went to sit in the living room waiting for her to come down. I was talking to her father when I heard her say, "How do I look?" I look up and saw her lovelier than ever in a strapless white dress with her hair flowing around her face. I stood up and opened my mouth but found out I could not find my voice. Then I got her hand shakily fastened the corsage around her wrist and whispered, "To the loveliest girl in the whole world." She then asked, "Is that true?" I nodded and she smiled and I smiled back then I turned to open the door for her. When we arrived at the gymnasium we hardly recognized our classmates. Gone were the jeans and T-shirts. They were replaced with tuxedos and gowns. Then I held out her hand bowed and said, "Would you give me the honor of your first dance?" She laughed and curtseyed. Then I led her to the dance floor. It was like a dream coming true, a moment of enchantment. I was there dancing with the only girl I ever loved. She was smiling up to me, as we were slowly moving in a smooth gliding motion. I found myself lost as I stared down to her sparkling eyes. The curls of her long hair were like waves enhancing her beautiful face. There were so many things I wanted to tell her that moment. I wanted to tell that she was the most beautiful girl that night. I wanted to tell her that she would always be the beacon of light in my darkness, but what I wanted to tell her the most was that I love her. I drew up all my courage and bent to whisper it in her ear but suddenly the music stopped and the magic was gone. I came close to telling her, but still haven't done it.
We walked towards the table and found ourselves surrounded by friends. I asked her if she wanted a drink, she nodded and so I went to get one. It took me a long time to get one and when I returned to our table, she was gone. I asked her friend, Katie, where she was but she told me that she doesn't know. So I went to search for her. As I was searching for her, I reached the garden. There I saw two silhouette figures outlined by the moon's silvery light. They were so close to each other that I could never describe the feeling I had when I recognized the white dress that Sam was wearing that night. I just turned and left the gymnasium.
Since that night, I avoided her. Many times she tried talking to me but I never gave her the chance to do so. I was afraid to hear her say that she loves Mark and not me. I would rather have left in ignorance of her true feelings for me than to hear from those dreaded words and feel my hope crush and my heart break. I didn't return her calls. I would not see her if she comes into our house. In the hallways, as she approaches I would go to another direction. It also hurts to do those things but then I thought that was the best way to forget her. Those months were tormenting but still I kept my pride.
The day of our graduation came. I was planning to take up medicine at a neighboring state and was to move out the next day. As the program ended, she approached me and handed me a rose. As she stared at me, there was something in her eyes I couldn't describe. There was sadness in them and when she smiled it wasn't the same smile she had. I wanted to hug her at that moment, tell her that I love her but then she turned and walked away from me.
So I moved out the next day as I planned. Luckily, I was accepted at the university. I concentrated with my studies but still I think of her at night. I was always wondering if she thinks of me too. I tried hard not to think of her but still I could not stop myself from loving her. Each achievement I have was done for her. I thought that if I will be successful one day, I would be able to tell her that I love her and by that time, I'm worthy of having her.
It was a year after our graduation when I decided to return home and see her again. I thought a year is too much for me not to see her and during the past year I felt like a person lost in the desert and only the sight of her could quench the thirst I have inside. As I got off the plane, I went home directly, desperate to get to her house desperate to see her, to hug her. Then I would tell her that I missed her and that I have loved her for a long time. This time I am determined to let her know my true feelings for her and I could not contain anymore the love I have for her. I reached their house; I saw her elder sister and I approached her. I smiled at her but I noticed she didn't smile back. I was confused for she used to be a cheerful lady just like my dear Sam. I then asked, "Hi Jen! I guess you're surprised why I'm here. Well I just want to visit you and I was also hoping to see Sam. I kind of miss her you know. Mmm… by the way have you seen her?" All I saw was sadness in her eyes as she replied quietly "Come follow me."
I was confused with the way she's acting but still I followed her. As we were walking, I was trying to indulge her in a conversation but she just answered my question briefly. Then I realized that she was leading me to the direction of the lake. It was still the same as I left it, with the same oak tree, Sam and I used to climb up. I smiled upon remembering the kiss Sam gave me when I agreed to be her partner. It's been one of the happiest days in my life and I realized that I missed Sam more than I thought. Then Jen stopped walking and pointed to the tree. She then whispered, "There's Sam."
I looked at where she was pointing and saw a newly dug tomb with the name of the girl I ever loved. I could not believe at what I saw and desperately tried convincing myself that this is all just a nightmare and I would soon wake up. I stared at Jenny in disbelief with her eyes searching for explanations and she slowly started saying, "It has been a week since she died. She died of Leukemia, but even though she was sick, she never stopped thinking about you. It was even your name she uttered before she died. She asked us to bury her here for she always regards this place as a place of LOVE. She said that this is where she had spent the happiest days and that was when she was with you. By the way, she also asked me to give you this." She handed me a parcel and with that she left.
I slowly opened the parcel and saw that it contained the dried orchid from the corsage I gave her for our prom. Then at the bottom I saw a letter. It was dated last month. I opened it with shaking hands and started reading........
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I know… by this time you read this letter I'm gone. I just want to tell you that I feel very lucky and thankful to God that I had a friend like you. I would also like you to know that I had left something inside, something I kept from you all these years. I love you Chris, not in a friendly way but as one who would feel like spending the rest of my life with. I have always loved you even from the start. I guess it just bloomed each day that's why the happiest days of my life was… when you were by my side. You just don't know how I dreamed of you at night and wake up in the morning and dream no more for you were with me. When you were away, I can't stop crying because I was afraid to think that you are with another girl. I just can't bear to see you with another girl. I just want you all to myself. I may sound selfish but that's how I feel.
Each time, you held me close to you, was like a dream coming true, for to be close to you and feel your heart beating next to mine was like heaven. So many things I did so that you will learn to love me but I NEVER saw a hint. I did everything to please you because I love you so much that I even tried to fool myself that you're in love with me too. So many nights I've cried when I think of myself unloved by you. Well you might think that what I'm saying are lies but, I tell you, my heart speaks the truth for I cannot bear telling a lie to the one I love. I know you might be thinking of Mark; but I just did that to make you jealous, to make you see me as a young woman, capable of loving and not as the little girl you used to play with. Sometimes I imagined that you were jealous and fooled myself that it was a sign that you feel something for me too. When Mark and I broke up and I came crying, I just did that to know… how you would react and with that I'll know that you love me too. But I failed for you didn't give me any clue. When our prom night came, you just don't know how happy I was when you handed me the corsage and saying that I was the loveliest girl in the whole world. While we were dancing, I wanted so desperately to hear you say that you love me too but you NEVER did. When Mark came and pleaded me to give him a second chance, I was scared that you might see us talking. I didn't want you to get the wrong impression so I told him we would talk in the garden. There I explained to him that it's you whom I really love.
What happened next was that I found you missing and later learned that you were searching for me, I just concluded that you saw us together. The next day, I tried to explain but then you never gave me a chance to do so. You continuously avoided me and never knew how much pain I've experienced that time. I felt the world crushing on me. In our Graduation day, when I approached you, I wanted to tell you… how much I loved you but I decided that I just couldn't do it. I could not bear to hear that all you feel for me is just brotherly hand of love. For I want you to love me as a woman and not as a girl or playmate. So I just turned away and left.
Now that saying I LOVE YOU might be too late, but still I want you to know that I will always love you and my heart has always been and will be yours alone.
P.S.: Think of me sometimes... and always remember that loving you was the best thing that ever happened in my life.
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I felt my tears falling as I folded the letter. I wanted to shout out to let her know that I love her, if not as much, but more than she did for me. I love her more than anything in this world. I knelt touching the soil of her grave and rain started to fall. I continued crying softly and whispered, "Oh God, send my love to heaven."
EVERLASTING LOVE
One fine day, an old couple around the age of 70, walks into a lawyer's office. Apparently, they are there to file a divorce.
Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story.... This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.
They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....
Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..
While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.. "I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry.." "Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..
At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness. The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."
Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.." This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"
Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.
That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...
He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....
On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord...
Little did she remember, he have heart problems...
The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....
As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...
"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know Iwill always be around, by your side... I love you"
Tears flowed like river......
"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."
Lawyer was very puzzled, after having a chat with them, he got their story.... This couple had been quarreling all their 40 over yrs of marriage nothing ever seems to go right.
They hang on because of their children, afraid that it might affect their up-bringing. Now, all their children have already grown up, have their own family, there's nothing else the old couple have to worry about, all they wanted is to lead their own life free from all these years of unhappiness from their marriage, so both agree on a divorce....
Lawyer was having a hard time trying to get the papers done, because he felt that after 40 yrs of marriage at the age of 70, he couldnt understand why the old couple would still want a divorce..
While they were signing the papers, the wife told the husband.. "I really love u, but i really cant carry on anymore, I'm sorry.." "Its o.k, i understand.." said the husband. Lookin at this, the lawyer suggested a dinner together, just 3 of them,wife thought, why not, since they are still gonna be friends..
At the dining table, there was a silence of awkardness. The first dish was roasted chicken, immediately, the old man took the drumstick for the old lady.."take this, its your favourite.."
Looking at this, the lawyer thought maybe theres still a chance, but the wife was frowning when she answer.." This is always the problem, you always think so highly of yourself, never thought about how I feel, dont you know that i hate drumsticks?"
Little did she know that, over the years, the husband have been trying all ways to please her, little did she know that drumsticks was the husband's favourite. Little did he know that she never thought he understand her at all, little did he know that she hates drummsticks even though all he wants is the best for her.
That night, both of them couldnt sleep, toss and turn, toss and turn...after hours, the old man couldnt take it anymore, he knows that he still loves her, and he cant carry on life without her, he wants her back, he wants to tell her, he is sorry, he wanted to tell her "i love you"...
He picks up the phone, starting dialing her number....ringing never stops..he never stop dialing....
On the other side, she was sad, she couldn’t understand how come after all these years, he still doesnt understand her at all, she loves him a lot, but she just cant take it anymore....phone's ringing, she refuses to answer knowing that its him..."whats the point of talking now that its over...i have ask for it and now i wanna keep it this way, if not i will lose face.."she thought...still ringing...she have decided to pull out the cord...
Little did she remember, he have heart problems...
The next day, she received news that he had passed away...she rushed down to his apartment, saw his body, lying on the couch still holding on to the phone...he had a heart attack when he was still trying to get through her phone line....
As sad as she could be...she will have to clear his belongings...when she was looking thru the drawers, she saw this insurance policy, dated from the day they got married, with the beneficiary being her... And together in those file, there was this note...
"To my dearest wife, by the time you're reading this, I'm sure I'm no longer around, I bought this policy for you, though the amount is only $100k, I hope it will be able to help me continue my promise that i have made when we got married, I might not be around anymore, I want this amount of money to continue taking care of you, just like the way I will if I could have live longer. I want you to know Iwill always be around, by your side... I love you"
Tears flowed like river......
"When you love someone, let them know... You never know what will happen the next minute.... Learn to build a life together.. Learn to love each other. For who they are.. not what they are..."
SILENT LOVE
From the very beginning, the girl's family objected strongly on her dating this guy. Saying that it has got to do with family background & that the girl will have to suffer for the rest of her life if she were to be with him.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
Due to family's pressure, the couple quarrel very often. Though the girl love the guy deeply, but she always ask him: "How deep is your love for me?"
As the guy is not good with his words, this often cause the girl to be very upset. With that & the family's pressure, the girl often vent her anger on him. As for him, he only endure it in silence.
After a couple of years, the guy finally graduated & decided to further his studies in overseas. Before leaving, he proposed to the girl: "I'm not very good with words. But all I know is that I love you. If you allow me, I will take care of you for the rest of my life. As for your family, I'll try my best to talk them round. Will you marry me?"
The girl agreed, & with the guy's determination, the family finally gave in & agreed to let them get married. So before he leave, they got engaged.
The girl went out to the working society, whereas the guy was overseas, continuing his studies. They sent their love through emails & phone calls. Though it's hard, but both never thought of giving up.
One day, while the girl was on her way to work, she was knocked down by a car that lost control. When she woke up, she saw her parents beside her bed. She realised that she was badly injured. Seeing her mum crying, she wanted to comfort her. But she realized that all that could come out of her mouth was just a sigh. She has lost her voice......
The doctors says that the impact on her brain has caused her to lose her voice. Listening to her parents' comfort, but with nothing coming out from her, she broke down.
During the stay in hospital, besides silence cry,.....it's still just silence cry that companied her. Upon reaching home, everything seems to be the same. Except for the ringing tone of the phone. Which pierced into her heart everytime it rang. She does not wish to let the guy know. & not wanting to be a burden to him, she wrote a letter to him saying that she does not wish to wait any longer.
With that, she sent the ring back to him. In return, the guy sent millions & millions of reply, and countless of phonecalls,.. all the girl could do, besides crying, is still crying....
The parents decided to move away, hoping that she could eventually forget everything & be happy.
With a new environment, the girl learn sign language & started a new life. Telling herself everyday that she must forget the guy. One day, her friend came & told her that he's back. She asked her friend not to let him know what happened to her. Since then, there wasn't anymore news of him.
A year has passed & her friend came with an envelope, containing an invitation card for the guy's wedding. The girl was shattered. When she open the letter, she saw her name in it instead.
When she was about to ask her friend what's going on, she saw the guy standing in front of her. He used sign language telling her "I've spent a year's time to learn sign language. Just to let you know that I've not forgotten our promise. Let me have the chance to be your voice. I Love You. With that, he slipped the ring back into her finger. The girl finally smiled.
ONE SIDED LOVE
"U're tried ur best, But that's not good enough for me. Understand, nevertheless Love's gotta go both ways, Well you push me away fr0m u, But you gotta meet me sumday, If you wanna make this right, But you gotta believe.... So here it is, here it is, baby, here it is... I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about What I feel, what I need,how's it gonna be, So what you wanna do, what you really wanna do, 'Cause I've decided everything i want from you,"One sided love Is never gonna work, So let me tell you something,That' I'm sure you've never heard of Tender love and care, In case you're unaware, So I tell you what, I'm giving you a second chance, But you gotta understand, If you don't undrstand me, So read my lips for the last time, I tell you now with no regret, if you don't get your act together, Even your name, I will forget I wanna help you out, tell you what it's all about What I feel, what I need, how's it gonna be, So what you wanna do, what you really wanna do, 'Cause I've decided everything i want from you, One sided love Is never gonna work, So let me tell you something, That' I'm sure you've never heard of Tender love and care In case you're unaware So I tell you what Let me tell you... One Sided Love. One sided love Is never gonna work So let me tell you something That' I'm sure you've never heard of Tender love and care In case you're unaware So I tell you what Let me tell you where it's at baby. .MODIFIED
Why Girls Like Guys!
read this...
well there r a few reas0ns WHY Us girls like guys
Page1 :
1.The way they always wear their fave cologne(w/c happens to be the one that u b0ught them for their bday)
2.The way they run their hands through ur hair
3.The way they lo0k at u & u want to die right there & then
4.The way they casually put their arms around u
5.The way they kiss away ur tears
6..& the way that they get mad at how they cant make ur problem go away
7.The way they show 0ff around their friends even th0ugh u b0th kn0w that u w0uld l0ved them even they missed a basket or two
8.How their eyes light up at the result of 3hrs of preparing for ur date
9.How they always kn0w what to say when u blush
10.How they sometimes think that they kn0w just what to say to make you feel better,even if you think that it is the w0rst thing that they could say
11.The way they hold u close when u r cold
12.How they l0ok at u when u r mad at them & all ur anger melts away
13.How they always smile when u r togetger
14.The way they always let u win in any game that u play together
15.And when u point that out to them,they pretend n0t to kn0w what r u talking about
16.The way that they smile at u
17.The way they make u feel when they c0me to apologize after u had a big fight
18.The way they say " I LOVE YOU"
19.The way they say " i love you " infront of their friends
20.The way they touch and hold u so gently like they r afraid that they will break u
21.The way that they open their arms to u when u r crying
22.The way that they never admit that u hurt them
23.The way that they n0t try to cry when they r afraid that they r losing u
24.The way that they think that they r ur big protector even though u think that u r theirs
25.The way that they say " i miss you " even though they hate to admit it
26.The way that u miss everything about them when they r gone.
well there r a few reas0ns WHY Us girls like guys
Page1 :
1.The way they always wear their fave cologne(w/c happens to be the one that u b0ught them for their bday)
2.The way they run their hands through ur hair
3.The way they lo0k at u & u want to die right there & then
4.The way they casually put their arms around u
5.The way they kiss away ur tears
6..& the way that they get mad at how they cant make ur problem go away
7.The way they show 0ff around their friends even th0ugh u b0th kn0w that u w0uld l0ved them even they missed a basket or two
8.How their eyes light up at the result of 3hrs of preparing for ur date
9.How they always kn0w what to say when u blush
10.How they sometimes think that they kn0w just what to say to make you feel better,even if you think that it is the w0rst thing that they could say
11.The way they hold u close when u r cold
12.How they l0ok at u when u r mad at them & all ur anger melts away
13.How they always smile when u r togetger
14.The way they always let u win in any game that u play together
15.And when u point that out to them,they pretend n0t to kn0w what r u talking about
16.The way that they smile at u
17.The way they make u feel when they c0me to apologize after u had a big fight
18.The way they say " I LOVE YOU"
19.The way they say " i love you " infront of their friends
20.The way they touch and hold u so gently like they r afraid that they will break u
21.The way that they open their arms to u when u r crying
22.The way that they never admit that u hurt them
23.The way that they n0t try to cry when they r afraid that they r losing u
24.The way that they think that they r ur big protector even though u think that u r theirs
25.The way that they say " i miss you " even though they hate to admit it
26.The way that u miss everything about them when they r gone.
Monday, September 12, 2011
coUplE is hEartbrEak
A boy was born to a couple after eleven years of marriage. They were a loving couple and the boy was the apple of their eyes. When the boy was around two years old, one morning the husband saw a medicine bottle open. He was late for work so he asked the wife to cap the bottle and keep it in the cupboard. The mother, preoccupied in the kitchen, totally forgot the matter.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?
The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.
Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.
If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.
The boy saw the bottle and playfully went to the bottle and, fascinated with its color, drank it all. It happened to be a poisonous medicine meant for adults in small dosages. When the child collapsed, the mother hurried him to the hospital, where he died. The mother was stunned. She was terrified how to face her husband.
When the distraught father came to the hospital and saw the dead child, he looked at his wife and uttered just four words.
What do you think were the four words?
The husband just said "I Love You Darling"
The husband's totally unexpected reaction is proactive behavior. The child is dead. He can never be brought back to life. There is no point in finding fault with the mother. Besides, if only he have taken time to keep the bottle away, this will not have happened. No point in attaching blame. She had also lost her only child. What she needed at that moment was consolation and sympathy from the husband. That is what he gave her.
Sometimes we spend time asking who is responsible or who to blame, whether in a relationship, in a job or with the people we know. We miss out some warmth in human relationship in giving each other support. After all, shouldn't forgiving someone we love be the easiest thing in the world to do? Treasure what you have. Don't multiply pain, anguish and suffering by holding on to forgiveness.
If everyone can look at life with this kind of perspective, there would be much fewer problems in the world.
Take off all your envies, jealousies, unwillingness to forgive, selfishness, and fears and you will find things are actually not as difficult as you think.
Not once did I expect this to happen. Never in my wildest dream that I’ve fallen, To a boy who wasn’t my prince charming Nor to someone who is my friend.
It must been your sweetness that melt my heart Or your gentle smile could be the start. Whatever the reason for me to feel this way One thing I know, this strange feeling grows stronger everyday
All this time I’ve been praying For you to see and look at me as a lady Every now and then I woke up dreaming That I can be your girl, not just a friend
Then reality broke me into pieces It wounded me bad as it came to my senses. That you belong to someone else And I’m left alone with all this heartaches
A few might have a clue But nobody knows the pain I’ve been thru They can’t guess the sleepless nights Nor count the tears I’ve cried.
My friends see me smiling and laughing Yet deep inside there’s no place for denying. I know a have to surrender and let go At least to cease and ease the misery
Still I’d be happy, Coz happiness means seeing you being one. And let me say this for once, I Love you…! But I love you more, so Goodbye……
It must been your sweetness that melt my heart Or your gentle smile could be the start. Whatever the reason for me to feel this way One thing I know, this strange feeling grows stronger everyday
All this time I’ve been praying For you to see and look at me as a lady Every now and then I woke up dreaming That I can be your girl, not just a friend
Then reality broke me into pieces It wounded me bad as it came to my senses. That you belong to someone else And I’m left alone with all this heartaches
A few might have a clue But nobody knows the pain I’ve been thru They can’t guess the sleepless nights Nor count the tears I’ve cried.
My friends see me smiling and laughing Yet deep inside there’s no place for denying. I know a have to surrender and let go At least to cease and ease the misery
Still I’d be happy, Coz happiness means seeing you being one. And let me say this for once, I Love you…! But I love you more, so Goodbye……
iloveyou & goodbye
Not once did I expect this to happen. Never in my wildest dream that I’ve fallen, To a boy who wasn’t my prince charming Nor to someone who is my friend. It must been your sweetness that melt my heart Or your gentle smile could be the start. Whatever the reason for me to feel this way One thing I know, this strange feeling grows stronger everyday All this time I’ve been praying For you to see and look at me as a lady Every now and then I woke up dreaming That I can be your girl, not just a friend Then reality broke me into pieces It wounded me bad as it came to my senses. That you belong to someone else And I’m left alone with all this heartaches A few might have a clue But nobody knows the pain I’ve been thru They can’t guess the sleepless nights Nor count the tears I’ve cried. My friends see me smiling and laughing Yet deep inside there’s no place for denying. I know a have to surrender and let go At least to cease and ease the misery Still I’d be happy, Coz happiness means seeing you being one. And let me say this for once, I Love you…! But I love you more, so Goodbye……
Saturday, September 10, 2011
TIME AND SPACE IN A RELATIONSHIP
The dating world is sometimes a hard one to survive. So much is happening, that we often become stressed and take it out on our significant others. The most important thing you can do is be self-aware. Know when to say enough is enough. Never lose your self-identity. Let the other person have a life of their own. Space is sometimes necessary. We would all like to believe that our significant other is someone who loves to be around us 24 hours a day, 7 days a week. While you both may love to spend tons of time together, this sometimes can be a negative thing. Are you or your partner losing friends? Are you fighting all the time, yet continue to see each other? Do you break plans with others, or not even make them at all, because you’re after to not be with the person you’re dating (or married to)? These are just a few signs that you need some space in the relationship. Relationships are a two way street. You have to know yourself in order to make the other person understand you. Finding someone who “just knows” what we want without communication is unrealistic. Aside from this, you need to open your ears and use your mind to understand the other person. We are not all psychology experts. Not everyone is self-aware. This is a strong key to a healthy relationship. If you can explain how you are as person, you can help your significant other understand you better. This is true vice versa. Sometimes we meet people who have little confidence, low self-esteem, and they just don’t really care to get to know themselves. If you are dating someone like this, it’s easier for you to help them if you aren’t in the same position that they are.
LYING TO FORGET
This lie's become a part of me For months, I've played this game Acting like it doesn't hurt Each time I hear his name Ignoring what's inside of me Pretending I've moved on As if the feelings I once had For him are somehow gone Spending each and every day With happiness and laughs Forgetting all our memories Avoiding photographs But last night when I saw him For the first time since he left My heart stopped for a moment... I couldn't catch my breath When suddenly it hit me As the tears started to flow That even after all this time... I just can't let him goThis lie's become a part of me For months, I've played this game Acting like it doesn't hurt Each time I hear his name Ignoring what's inside of me Pretending I've moved on As if the feelings I once had For him are somehow gone Spending each and every day With happiness and laughs Forgetting all our memories Avoiding photographs But last night when I saw him For the first time since he left My heart stopped for a moment... I couldn't catch my breath When suddenly it hit me As the tears started to flow That even after all this time... I just can't let him go ..
List of Flowers and their Symbology
Giving flowers to someone are not more emphasize with their literal definition, sometimes their meanings symbolize each flowers that define for a cause. Below the list of some flowers with their respective symbology.
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Anemone.
-expectation.
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Apple Blossom.
-hope, good fortune.
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Baby's breath.
-innocense.
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Blue Periwinkle.
-friendship.
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Blue Violet.
-modesty,faithfulness.
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Bluebells.
-constancy.
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Buttercup.
-cheerfulness, desire for richness.
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Camellia.
-loveliness, fascination.
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Carnation.
-engagement.
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Chrysanthemum.
-wealth, truth.
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Daffodil.
-regard.
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Daisy.
-Share ur feelings.
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Edelweiss.
-Daring, noble courage.
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Foxglove.
-insincerity.
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Freesia.
-innocense.
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Gardenia.
-purity, joy.
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Iris.
-message of faith, wisdom.
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Jasmine.
-wealth, grace.
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Lavender.
-distrust.
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Lilac.
-first emotions of love.
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Lily.
-majesty, truth, honor.
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Marigold.
-grief.
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Narcissus.
-egotism, formality.
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Orange blossom.
-purity, fertility.
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Orchid.
-love, beauty.
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Peach blossom.
-captive.
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Peony.
-bashfulness.
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Pink rose.
-grace.
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Red Poppy.
-consolation.
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Red rose.
-passion.
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Rose.
-love, joy, beauty.
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Sampaguita.
-faith, purity, grace.
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Sunflower.
-adoration.
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Sweat Pea.
-pleasure.
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Tulip.
-love, passion.
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White Poppy.
-sleep.
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White rose.
-worthiness.
.
.
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Anemone.
-expectation.
.
Apple Blossom.
-hope, good fortune.
.
Baby's breath.
-innocense.
.
Blue Periwinkle.
-friendship.
.
Blue Violet.
-modesty,faithfulness.
.
Bluebells.
-constancy.
.
Buttercup.
-cheerfulness, desire for richness.
.
Camellia.
-loveliness, fascination.
.
Carnation.
-engagement.
.
Chrysanthemum.
-wealth, truth.
.
Daffodil.
-regard.
.
Daisy.
-Share ur feelings.
.
Edelweiss.
-Daring, noble courage.
.
Foxglove.
-insincerity.
.
Freesia.
-innocense.
.
Gardenia.
-purity, joy.
.
Iris.
-message of faith, wisdom.
.
Jasmine.
-wealth, grace.
.
Lavender.
-distrust.
.
Lilac.
-first emotions of love.
.
Lily.
-majesty, truth, honor.
.
Marigold.
-grief.
.
Narcissus.
-egotism, formality.
.
Orange blossom.
-purity, fertility.
.
Orchid.
-love, beauty.
.
Peach blossom.
-captive.
.
Peony.
-bashfulness.
.
Pink rose.
-grace.
.
Red Poppy.
-consolation.
.
Red rose.
-passion.
.
Rose.
-love, joy, beauty.
.
Sampaguita.
-faith, purity, grace.
.
Sunflower.
-adoration.
.
Sweat Pea.
-pleasure.
.
Tulip.
-love, passion.
.
White Poppy.
-sleep.
.
White rose.
-worthiness.
.
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iF your waiting FOr sOmeoNe
Der comes a tym in our lives wen we chance upon sum1 so nice and beautiful and we just find ourselves getting so intensely attracted to that person. This feeling soon becomes a part of our everyday lives and eventually consumes our thoughts and actions. The sad part of it is wen we begin to realize dat ds person feels nothing more for us than friendship. We start our desperate attempts to get noticed and be closer but in the end our efforts are still unrewarded and we end up being sorry for ourselves. 
U dont have to forget someone u love. Wat u need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for urself. U wud be better off giving dat dedication and love to sum1 more deserving.
Sum1 hu mkes a promse wd words and not wd actions may nvr live up to fulfill them. It's true dat love can wait 4ever but it is crazy to stubbornly hope 4 sum1 hu doesnt even care or understand how we feel. Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses and most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way because of that. This feeling u have nurtured 4 so long isn't healthy anymore. U must realize dat u hav2 let go nw b4 it consumes u and ur sanity. Der is always a time to think and stop, a time to be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads. U deserv 2b hapi not in the arms of sum1 hu kips u w8ng bt in d arms of sum1 hu will take u now and luv u 4ever.
Der s nothng wrong in expressng our feelings to sum1 we luv, but we must always be sensitive to the signals that tells us wen to rationalize and be sensible. Der comes a time in our lives wen we would fall for sum1 hu wouldnt be as interested as we are bcause his/her attention is focused on sum1 else. There are many tyms wen we love but dnt get loved in return.
Der are times wen d sign ahead says stop but we stubbornly head on. We wud say our luv is unconditional, but if it really is, den why shud we ever feel bad? but why do we get frustr8d wen love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about. Being inluv can b d most wonderful thng we cud experience, but if d feeling begins to consume our whole being, den we hve 2 stop and let our minds and not our hearts dictate our actions. Only wen we learn to accept our fate and understand the meaning of our failures can we truly go on and live life without having to look back and cry over the things that cud have been but will never be. ..ü
U dont have to forget someone u love. Wat u need to learn is how to accept the verdict of reality without being bitter or sorry for urself. U wud be better off giving dat dedication and love to sum1 more deserving.
Sum1 hu mkes a promse wd words and not wd actions may nvr live up to fulfill them. It's true dat love can wait 4ever but it is crazy to stubbornly hope 4 sum1 hu doesnt even care or understand how we feel. Love makes us see things through rose-colored glasses and most of the time, we fail to recognize the danger sign that light up along our way because of that. This feeling u have nurtured 4 so long isn't healthy anymore. U must realize dat u hav2 let go nw b4 it consumes u and ur sanity. Der is always a time to think and stop, a time to be sensible and not allow our hearts to rule over our heads. U deserv 2b hapi not in the arms of sum1 hu kips u w8ng bt in d arms of sum1 hu will take u now and luv u 4ever.
Der s nothng wrong in expressng our feelings to sum1 we luv, but we must always be sensitive to the signals that tells us wen to rationalize and be sensible. Der comes a time in our lives wen we would fall for sum1 hu wouldnt be as interested as we are bcause his/her attention is focused on sum1 else. There are many tyms wen we love but dnt get loved in return.
Der are times wen d sign ahead says stop but we stubbornly head on. We wud say our luv is unconditional, but if it really is, den why shud we ever feel bad? but why do we get frustr8d wen love turns sour? Because we still subconsciously seek acceptance and assurance from the people we care about. Being inluv can b d most wonderful thng we cud experience, but if d feeling begins to consume our whole being, den we hve 2 stop and let our minds and not our hearts dictate our actions. Only wen we learn to accept our fate and understand the meaning of our failures can we truly go on and live life without having to look back and cry over the things that cud have been but will never be. ..ü FALLING :)
My friends are all such love struck fools,
To fall for such different guys,
One friend is gone, forever lost,
Whenever she looks in his eyes.
She turns and runs when she hears him calling,
She's lost her grip and she can't stop falling.
Another friend most dear to me,
Has fallen for a guy,
She says his laugh makes her heart beat fast,
And his smile could make her heart fly.
She turns and runs when she hears him calling,
She's lost her grip and she can't stop falling.
I guess that makes me the last one left,
The last of all the rest,
I will not fall to Cupid's whims,
I'll pass this crazy test.
They turn and run when they hear him calling,
They've lost their grips and they can't stop falling.
I refused to say those awful words,
But you came down from above,
So now I'm done and have to say,
That I'm completely in love.
I'll turn and run when i hear you calling,
I've lost my grip and i can't stop falling.
5 DEADLY TERMS USED BY A WOMAN:
1. FINE.
-this is the word used to end an argument when they know that they are right and you need to shut up.
2. NOTHING.
-means something, and you need to be worried.
3. GO AHEAD.
-this is a dare, not permission. DO NOT DO IT.
4. WHATEVER.
-is a woman's way to say f*ck you!
5. THAT'S OK.
-she is thinking how long and hard on how and when you will pay for your mistake...
now u know??
-this is the word used to end an argument when they know that they are right and you need to shut up.
2. NOTHING.
-means something, and you need to be worried.
3. GO AHEAD.
-this is a dare, not permission. DO NOT DO IT.
4. WHATEVER.
-is a woman's way to say f*ck you!
5. THAT'S OK.
-she is thinking how long and hard on how and when you will pay for your mistake...
now u know??
Love that hide behind
The str0ngest l0ve y0u'll ever kn0w is l0ve that always hides behind.
For thisfeeling is l0cked and kept, afraid to kn0w what's really felt.
The truest l0ve y0u'll ever see, is f0rm the heart of miseries filled with tearful mem0ries, kn0wing that we will never be.
The greatest l0ve y0u'll ever kn0w is l0vethat can never be sh0wn, painfully held back and suppressed, feeling left behind. The only l0ve that really cares is l0ve that's judged to be unfair. It is the l0ve that is never heard.
The deepest l0ve on y0ur side is l0ve that stands the test of time, left with n0 ch0ice but simply hide, behindthis w0unded heart of mine..
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